I have a hard time with God sometimes. I can pray to Him and I can also talk as if He was right next to me, like talking to a friend or a parent. But there are so many times I just want to see Him, though, you know? I confess often that I wish I had someone just like Him in the flesh to talk to, to share my troubles with and physically put my head on their shoulder while embracing in a hug.
I feel so bad for confessing that because spiritually, I know God is right here with me. Always. Putting his arm around me and comforting me. Spiritually I feel it, but physically I want to feel it more.
Then, out of the blue, a friend sends me a message telling me her “God sighting”, telling me that she thought of me when it happened.
It didn’t take long to have it hit me that God was speaking to me through my friend. The story she shared was so filled with the word of God to me, even though it was her own encounter with God. God answered my prayer and became a human.
I have a hard time with God sometimes, but am so thankful that he doesn’t feel the same about me.
Thank you God.
The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.
Welcome to the inside of my mind as I free write. I usually do not share this type of writing as it can become a personal piece; however, I have joined Writing 101 to enhance my writing and learn to write better. There may be typos, and this may not make sense. For the first time, I don’t care what you think because this is my mind unleashing. Speaking of unleashing, my dog-niece Emma was brutally mauled by some big dogs. She is a little miracle and I have been praying for her since the horrible incident happened on Memorial Day. Holidays are big for tragedy. I am thankful that I have never lost a loved one on a holiday. Near a holiday, but not on a holiday. Heaven is full of people I love and miss dearly.
I am not sure how open I want my mind to get here. Although I am on the world wide web, I do consider myself a very private person. I take to heart relationships and think they are more precious than gold or silver or any other mineral that is worth a lot of money. I remember a time when I had made plans with a friend to go to a movie. To get me to go to a movie is a big deal in itself, but I envisioned the time together after the movie where we could discuss what the movie was about and how it affected us emotionally or relationally…whatever the movie was about. I met my friend at the theater since we lived a distance apart. I still wonder what my expression was on my face when she showed up with her friend, whom I have never met before. I was internally crushed as I value one-on-one time with others and this new person, I had no idea she was coming nor did I even know her from Adam. I sucked it up and hung out with them. The after movie time was not what I expected and I hated every minute.
Movies…I fall asleep in movies unless it is a good relational movie. See paragraph about relationships above.
I am pretty tired for a Monday. Usually I get a second wind on Sunday evenings and then it is like…”Oh, I need to do laundry”, or “shoot, I wanted to do such-and-such this weekend. Why are weekends so fast and weekdays so slow? I would like to ask that of different age groups. For children every day takes a long time because they don’t have to do any thing but exist. Parents or adults in their lives cook, clean, do laundry, blah blah blah. Adults have to do all these things that are time consuming and that is where all of our time goes…to the necessities of life. So let’s get rid of the mundane unnecessaries. Join me in clearing out unneeded stuff. Simplify simplify simplify. I have challenged myself to drop my smartphone and ipad so that I can go back to a normal life of hobbies and creativity. Candy Crush has taken away some of the most valuable time of my life that I can never get back. I do like the relational aspect of Facebook, so I do tend to peruse my feed. However, it is time to get back to basics, engage my brain and read, write and craft. I have begun to teach myself how to crochet but, that is the only time that I really log into my ipad, so I can watch youtube videos. So many people in the world are willing to share their love of crafting. I am very thankful. I am thankful that I was raised with a mom who was talented in anything she touched. She can bake like none other, she can decorate cakes better than any bakery, she can sew, crochet and arrange flowers in a vase. My sister is a very good seamstress and she inspires me every time I speak with her or read up on her fabric store in Kentucky. (once again, a time I am on my devices). I have really slowed down my electronic devices usage. I have cut down on television too. Not that that was ever a problem. I have my favorite few shows such as Downton Abby, Survivor and Naked and Afraid. Check that out…all relational-type shows. If you ever want to know how to understand me, just ask me for one-on-one time. We will be friends for life.
I am about done with this free writing. I didn’t unleash anything embarrassing; I did hold back a lot only because this is on my blog. I want my readers to find interest in what I write. I do not want to write junk.
I have purchased some very nice fabrics and have taken time to cut squares and triangles out of them to sew together to make a quilt. I have cleaned out my attic and gathered items that I no longer need or use and grouped them in a pile to take to Goodwill. I have broken concrete slabs piled in my backyard that the previous owners used as garden borders and landscape definitions.
The commonality of my fabric pieces, the items for Goodwill, and the broken concrete slabs are that they are all projects I started and have not finished yet. I have an idea of when I will finish them, but it will take time and I am okay with that as I know the end result will be a beautiful unique quilt, others may enjoy my used items and the yard will be landscaped to attract birds and butterflies and be pleasant to the senses.
We are no different than the unfinished projects we have in our lives. You may have read the phrase “God is not finished with me yet”. It is true, we are a work in progress. When you feel deflated and lack energy, remember that God is still at work molding you. When you feel broken down by illness, remember that God is working to heal you. When your relationships with others feel strained and like they are a lot of work, remember that God is at work in each of us. He knits us together individually as well as together. Ease back on your frustrations and take note of the newness that is going on in your life.
God is not finished with us yet and there will be a glorious day when He is. We will see Him face-to-face in Heaven. We will see that we are wonderfully made in His image.
Philippians 2:13 NIV
For it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill His good purpose.