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Jesus said to her, " I am the resurrection and the life. Those who believe in me, even though they die, will live, and everyone who lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?" She said to him, "Yes, Lord, I believe that you are the Messiah, the Son of God, the one coming into the world." John 11:25-28

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Where is God?


I have a hard time with God sometimes. I can pray to Him and I can also talk as if He was right next to me, like talking to a friend or a parent. But there are so many times I just want to see Him, though, you know? I confess often that I wish I had someone just like Him in the flesh to talk to, to share my troubles with and physically put my head on their shoulder while embracing in a hug.

I feel so bad for confessing that because spiritually, I know God is right here with me. Always. Putting his arm around me and comforting me. Spiritually I feel it, but physically I want to feel it more.

Then, out of the blue, a friend sends me a message telling me her “God sighting”, telling me that she thought of me when it happened.

It didn’t take long to have it hit me that God was speaking to me through my friend. The story she shared was so filled with the word of God to me, even though it was her own encounter with God. God answered my prayer and became a human.

I have a hard time with God sometimes, but am so thankful that he doesn’t feel the same about me.
Thank you God.

John 1:14
The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.

New Beginnings


I am new.

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The Year in Review


I thank God for the stirrings in my heart, Read more…

Speechless


When God wants you to have something, He will find a way to give it to you. Read more…

Family


Every Wednesday in Lent, my church family gathers for homemade soup suppers with a Lenten Jazz Vespers service that follows. My current work schedule, along with the distance from work to church, prohibits my participation in the soup supper, but I am there for the service. On Wednesday, March 20 I arrived at the church 15 minutes before the service started so I took the opportunity to sit in a pew in the sanctuary to pray. I am blown away at how God had prepared my heart for what happened next.

While I sat and prayed, I noticed my church family and visitors were talking amongst each other in the Narthex. It was a very beautiful sound to hear and I thanked God for the life within the congregation.

Since we are without a devoted Pastor to our church, our awesome supply Pastor, whom we all love, has been leading our family in worship on Sundays, as well as our Wednesday evening services. His sermon was on the Gospel story where a woman poured the expensive perfume on Jesus. After Pastor talked for a short time, he invited the congregation to speak up and share what we do as a church family to serve Jesus. Like popcorn, voices popped up from the front, the back and each side of the church sharing the minitries that we offer to each other and the community. Such examples are Stephen Ministry, Personal Care Pantry, members rotate and feed the homeless at a shelter in the downtown area of our city, Vacation Bible School, Prayer Shawls, Food Baskets for the poor at Thanksgiving and Christmas, Shut-in Visitation, Easter baskets for the local children’s hospital, and the list went on. In fact, to keep the service within an hour, he had to cut the people short as they did not exhaust in sharing their examples.

God prepared my heart to be open to the ways we, as a congregation, are serving Jesus. We do not sit around and mope without a dedicated Pastor. In fact, we continue to be the hands and feet of Jesus. We continue to breathe life within our church and breathe life out into the community. I had tears in my eyes as even the professional Jazz Band, who shared freely of their time and talent that evening, played so beautifully adding to the blessing of the evening.

If you are having one of those days where life seems bleek and fruitless, take some quiet time with God and ask Him to open your heart to see how you serve Him. It took me about a week to realize how I serve Jesus because I consider myself very ordinary, although mindful of others. He showed me the many gifts and talents with which I have been blessed and that I have used them to be a blessing to Him.

May you realize what a blessing you are to others and Jesus.

Matthew 26:6-11
Jesus Anointed at Bethany

6 While Jesus was in Bethany in the home of Simon the Leper, 7 a woman came to him with an alabaster jar of very expensive perfume, which she poured on his head as he was reclining at the table.
8 When the disciples saw this, they were indignant. “Why this waste?” they asked. 9 “This perfume could have been sold at a high price and the money given to the poor.”
10 Aware of this, Jesus said to them, “Why are you bothering this woman? She has done a beautiful thing to me. 11 The poor you will always have with you,[a] but you will not always have me.

What’s In Your Wallet?


Scenario 1
An elderly woman turns her house upside down searching for two lost coins. Frantic to find them she is relieved when she does; these two coins are all she has to live on. She goes to church and puts them both in the offering plate.

Scenario 2
Newly divorced, single woman lives in a tiny apartment furnished with lawn chairs and a donated kitchen table. She receives a bonus of $500 from her employer. This money is needed to make ends meet. She goes to church on Sunday and puts $50 in the collection plate.

Scenario 3
A shop-aholic goes to her favorite boutique and finds a dress perfect for a party. It is on the sale rack for ten percent off the price. She does the math in her head and feels that ten percent isn’t much, but at least she can tell her husband she got it on sale, and she makes a purchase.

Out of the three scenarios, who would you guess to be the biggest loser? Let’s break this down.

Scenario 1, it was not uncommon for the elderly woman to give all she had. God blessed her by meeting her needs and she was never without food, clothing or shelter. She lived by faith.

Scenario 2, the newly divorced, single woman went shopping after church. She found a great deal on a new television and had half of the bonus money left over.

Scenario 3, the shop-aholic spied a must-have accessory. It was the ten percent difference she was saving on the dress. The dress ripped and the accessory was lost somewhere between the car and the party.

Scenario 3 comes in as the biggest loser. Selfish motives produce no blessings.

What’s in your wallet? God only asks for ten percent and he promises a great return on your investment.


Give generously to them and do so without a grudging heart; then because of this the Lord your God will bless you in all your work and in everything you put your hand to. (Deuteronomy 15:10 NIV)

The Cross We Bear


You may have seen the chain email going around in the early days of email. The story where a person tells God that they do not want the cross they are bearing. Read more…

Exiting the Closet


On November 9, 2010 I came out of the closet on this blog. Not the typical closet that most are accustomed to hearing about; I came out of an even more secret closet…the childless closet. This is the blog Blessing in Disguise, if you have not read it before.

It was a very vulnerable move on my part as only select people were privy to this information in the past. So why did I do it? I did it because I made peace with this part of my life.

I am a charter member of ChildlessNotByChoice, a childless website begun in 2002. I owe so much to Diane and Kimberly who founded the site out of their own need for a childless community. I thank the members there for their virtual hand-holding and understanding of the pain, fears, and frustrations of being childless not by choice. With all of their support, I have been able to make peace with my surgically removed dreams of motherhood.

For years I focused on the fact that children are a gift from God, and I wasn’t given this gift. I felt left out and I allowed this to block my view of all of the other blessings that God has given me. I realized this week that even though I am a parent to none, God’s children are everywhere and every age. I am able to share His word and love with God’s children I never bore.

I made my exit from the childless closet to let you know that while I was in there, I struggled with what I thought should have been my blessing. In my humanness, I was angry and confused with God.

Today, I am walking in faith, by the grace of God, knowing that I am right where I should be. I extend to you my virtual hand to hold, along with my virtual shoulder to lean on, from this day forward. I am willing to listen to you without judging, walk along side you without running away, and pray for you unceasingly. Whatever burden you carry, I want you to know the love of God.

This is a confidential invitation. I will only share your burdens in prayer with God.

Ephesians 3:14-19(NIV)

For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

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