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Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” Mark 9:24

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Late Night Visitor – More Visitors


When I wrote my first Late Night Visitor post on April 10, 2019, I didn’t know it would become so important in my grief process and become a series of posts. If you are grieving, I hope each entry has helped you in your walk with grief as it has helped me to get it out of my head.

In that first entry, grief came to me in the middle of the night, standing next to a large suitcase and without a return ticket from where it came.

Recently grief, ignoring the shelter-in-place orders and social distancing regulations, has invited anxiety and panic into my home. They follow me around and have been known to hold my hands, whisper lies in my ear, and wake me out of a sound sleep. So annoying.

As they hold my hands, I am not able to clasp them together to make praying hands. I cannot lift them up to the heavens to give God praise and honor He rightly deserves.

The whispers in my ears I know are blatant lies, but they are said over and over and over especially when I am alone. And during this pandemic, I am alone a lot of the time; I started to believe this negative one-way conversation. As they whisper in my ear, they grip my throat in a way that it tightens and my breathing becomes shallow.

From my experience, anxiety and panic are nocturnal too. Their most active time is around 2:30 in the morning while I am sound asleep. They poke and prod at me. They continue the negative whispers in my ear and in the silence of the night, it rings louder. I lose about 1.5 hours of sleep because of their active lifestyle.

I alone do not have the strength it takes to fight these enemies. I am weak and powerless on my own when grief and its friends, anxiety, and panic, gang up on me. But even when my hands are constrained and my throat feels tight and my breathing is shallow, I can find it within me to whisper four syllables, “Jesus, help me” and I am no longer alone.

Listen to my cry, for I am in need; rescue me from those who pursue me, for they are too strong for me. Set me free from my prison, that I may praise your name.

Psalm 142:6

Jesus brings His army of angels to fight these battles for me. They rush in and unbind my hands and they force the grip away from my throat.

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”

Exodus 14:14

I cannot see the spiritual war going on around me, but I know angels are present and God’s peace covers me like a blanket. Suddenly my hands are lifted high as my heart and mind recall what I know about my relationship with God…

I am a child of the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords.  I have Jesus Christ living inside of me. My God has promised to meet every one of my needs and He is right here with me at this moment.  

If you are bound by grief, anxiety, and panic, know that you too can cry out to Jesus for this same protection.  You are not alone.

 

Life Changes Course


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Guarded


I recently read somewhere that God sends His angels to protect us from many dangers during the day.  How would we revere God if we could see a flashback of our day and how many times we were saved from danger?

Our cats have a battery-operated motion toy.  It is about 12″ in diameter with a motor in the middle of a fabric skirt.  There is a little arm that moves left and right randomly and at different speeds.  The end of the arm used to have feathers, but the cats tore them off when they first got it.  Now there is some yarn-like strings that move about catching their attention.  This is a perfect distraction toy for our Amos as he tends to stalk Zoe a lot and she lets out blood-curdling screams like a woman walking through a haunted house.  A bit annoying, especially when this happens at 2 AM under our bed.

I noticed the batteries dying out last night as Amos played with it and I told him I would change the batteries today.  Don’t let cats fool you; they remember what you tell them.  This morning he was pawing at the toy and I had changed the batteries as promised.  He played with that toy while laying in a sunbeam and playing with an additional toy.  It was a really cute cat moment.

When he walks away from the toy, I turn it off.

As I was getting ready to run an errand this afternoon, he was pawing at the toy again.  Knowing I would be leaving within minutes, I caved in and turned the toy on for him.  I don’t like leaving it run without supervision, so I gave him a couple of minutes to play as I puttered around the house.  As I turned off the toy, I gave him a pat on the head and headed out the door.

I believe God sent his angels to protect me as I waited for Amos to play with his toy.  You see, I set my GPS to my destination but decided to take a different highway route than what was indicated.  I knew generally where I was going, but street of the final destination was not as familiar and I felt more comfortable with the GPS for that purpose.  As I neared the exit from the highway, I saw a police car, with its flashers on, sitting behind a car that was in an accident.  The second car in the accident was off to the other side of the highway.  I think there may have been an accident up ahead of this one as the traffic was starting to back up close to this exit.

I wonder if I would have been in that accident had I not stopped to let Amos play with his toy?  Some people might think I am overthinking this, but I believe God was watching over me today.  I ran a second errand on my way home to buy birdseed at my favorite garden store.  When I got home, I saw a live news video on Facebook an hour later and they were talking about a water main break near that store.  The ground broke open in the street and water gushed out.  I was spared that problem too.

Now you can say that recently you read somewhere that God sends His angels to protect us from many dangers during the day.  How would you revere God if you could see a flashback of your day and how many times you were saved from danger?

Thank you, God, for watching over me and sending your angels to my rescue. 

Psalm 91:11-12

For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

Easter Morning


The stone was rolled away.  The linen wrappings were lying there and the cloth that had been on Jesus’ head was rolled up and set in a place by itself.  Jesus had risen just as He said He would.

Mary Magdalene stood weeping outside the tomb.  As she wept, she looked into the tomb and saw two angels sitting; one at the place where Jesus’ feet would have been and the other at the head.  They asked her why she was weeping.  She replied, “They have taken away my Lord, and I do not know where they have laid him.”  She turned around and saw Jesus standing there but did not recognize him and she thought it was a gardener.  She asked him if he knew where Jesus’ body was laid because she wanted to take him away.

Jesus said to her, “Mary!”

“Rabbouni!” Mary exclaimed.

Jesus said to her, “Do not hold on to me, because I have not yet ascended to the Father.  But go to my brothers and say to them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.'”

Mary ran to tell the disciples, “I have seen the Lord!”

JESUS CHRIST IS RISEN!!

HE HAS RISEN INDEED!!

Separated


John 20:3-17
3 So Peter and the other disciple started for the tomb. 4 Both were running, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first. 5 He bent over and looked in at the strips of linen lying there but did not go in. 6 Then Simon Peter came along behind him and went straight into the tomb. He saw the strips of linen lying there, 7 as well as the cloth that had been wrapped around Jesus’ head. The cloth was still lying in its place, separate from the linen. 8 Finally the other disciple, who had reached the tomb first, also went inside. He saw and believed. 9 (They still did not understand from Scripture that Jesus had to rise from the dead.) 10 Then the disciples went back to where they were staying.

Jesus Appears to Mary Magdalene

11 Now Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb 12 and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus’ body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot. 13 They asked her, “Woman, why are you crying?”
“They have taken my Lord away,” she said, “and I don’t know where they have put him.” 14 At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus. 15 He asked her, “Woman, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?” Thinking he was the gardener, she said, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him.” 16 Jesus said to her, “Mary.” She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means “Teacher”). 17 Jesus said, “Do not hold on to me, for I have not yet ascended to the Father. Go instead to my brothers and tell them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’”

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Angels In Black and White


Clyde died less than a month after my father passed away. Read more…

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