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Jesus said to her, " I am the resurrection and the life. Those who believe in me, even though they die, will live, and everyone who lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?" She said to him, "Yes, Lord, I believe that you are the Messiah, the Son of God, the one coming into the world." John 11:25-28

Empty Change


I never dreamed I would write what you are about to read. The Christmas season is hard for me.

Christmas is hard when people we love have moved on from this life to the next. I really miss my father. Two-thousand eleven, the second year of not buying him chocolate covered cherries for Christmas. And approximately the fourth year missing the sound of his contagious laugh.

Christmas is hard when you thought some people should be in this life but they are not. Two-thousand eleven, the nineteenth year of confirmed childlessness. No legacy to live on in human form.

Two-thousand eleven is the first year I boldly approach the manger. I want to get a good look at the baby Jesus, but as I approach, he is not there. “Am I too early, or too late?” my mind wonders. As I turn away filled with emptiness, I am met with a radiant new mother, Mary. She says, “Kristine, behold the Lamb of God. Born for you this day, He is a true gift from God.”

I never dreamed I would write what you are about to read. The Christmas season is hard for me, I am busy holding baby Jesus.

Because of baby Jesus, I will see and hear my father again. Because of baby Jesus, I cannot say I am childless.

Jeremiah 31:13(NIV)

Then young women will dance and be glad,
   young men and old as well.
I will turn their mourning into gladness;
   I will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow.

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4 thoughts on “Empty Change

  1. intensely beautiful.

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  2. Abby Kelly on said:

    This is wonderful. I do feel your pain.
    Just this year, I held my first niece and realized that due to so many factors, not the least of which is a tough marriage, I will likely never hold my own baby.
    I lost my grandfather this year and I won’t be anywhere near family. The Christmas season is hard, except that it’s not about us. Jesus makes it us about us, because it’s all about HIM and He chose to love us and save us.
    This year, he’s holding me, or I feel like I would fall apart.
    God bless you and keep you. You’re in my prayers.
    http://www.benjity.wordpress.com

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