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Then the man said, “Lord, I believe,” and he worshiped him. John 9:38 (NIV)

No Ordinary Touch


Sometimes the “stuff” of life get us down.  Read more…

Heres to Loss, Part 3


Here’s to Loss, Part 1

Here’s to Loss, Part 2

Luke 23:26-29 (NIV).  The title of this section in my Bible is The Crucifixion of Jesus:

As the soldiers led him away, they seized Simon from Cyrene, who was on his way in from the country, and put the cross on him and made him carry it behind Jesus.  A large number of people followed him, including women who mourned and wailed for him.  Jesus turned and said to them, “Daughters of Jerusalem, do not weep for me; weep for yourselves and for your children.   For the time will come when you will say, ‘Blessed are the childless women, the wombs that never bore and the breasts that never nursed!’ 

Jesus said this to the crowd because He probably saw his mother there and He knew the agony she was going through as she mourned and wailed watching her innocent son endure such brutality while walking to His death. There was nothing she could do for her son.

Not only is Jesus talking to mothers, but he is also talking to me and every barren woman.  I am blessed to be shielded from a certain agony.  Over the years, I attended two funerals for children. One child died at the age of 5 from brain cancer and the other was stillborn at nearly nine months gestation. Etched in my mind’s eye are the blank looks on the faces of the mothers.  They stood numb with grief next to the tiny caskets.  Nothing could comfort their distraught hearts.

We cannot play hide-and-go-seek with loss; no matter how well we think we hide, loss will always find us.  Remember that God has a plan for our lives.  He knit us in our mother’s womb, gave us our gifts and talents, and placed us in the world right now because we fit into a bigger picture, a bigger plan.

This ends my series Here’s to Loss.  I have made peace with my loss and I urge you to make peace with yours.  Rather than dwelling on what we do not have or dwelling on what we wish we could be, place your trust in the God who created you.  His plans are bigger than anything we can imagine.  Know that God will bless you because He made you and loves you.  Be thankful for being here and now.

 

 

 

 

Here’s to Loss, Part 2


Here’s to Loss, Part 1

It takes time to process loss in our lives. Read more…

The Cottage on Memory Lane


Living in Michigan is an entitlement to spending summers by water. Read more…

Here’s to Loss, Part 1


I had written about my biggest loss in my life when I wrote Blessing in Disguise.  (You can click on the title to read this post.) Read more…

My Own Song Pop


Free-Write Assignment regarding 3 Songs that have meant a lot to me in my life.

Today is the Day by Lincoln Brewster

I remember my final semester of college, 2009. I took a self-directed class on building my career and learning how to network.  I had to research jobs that I was interested, write my resume and perform a mock interview with my professor.  The feedback I received after the mock interview was that I nailed it!  My answers were spot on, and I was confident.  She even told me that I had raised the bar for expectations of students to follow after me.

When I got out to my car, Today is the Day, by Lincoln Brewster was playing on my radio.  I caught it in the middle and the words were:

              I`m reaching my hand to Yours

              Believing there`s so much more

              Knowing that all You have in store for me is good

In hindsight, this was an important message for my faith and in where God has led me. God is Good!!

 

Amazing Grace

My dad sang this all the time. He used to play it on his harmonica all the time.  We played it over and over on a CD player the early morning my family stood around his bedside as he crossed over to eternal life with Jesus.  Bittersweet moment; this song is special to my whole family.  Miss you Pappason!!!

 

Friends by Michael W. Smith

I know MWSmith wrote this quickly as he was saying good-bye to some dear friends as they were moving out of state or something, but my favorite part is:

                 And friends are friends forever

                 If the Lord’s the Lord of them

                 And a friend will not say never

                ‘Cause the welcome will not end

I love it that I can pick up from where I left off with my dearest friends. I am blessed with some really great friends.

Destination: The Center


I have been granted an opportunity of a lifetime!  I have been given a chance to move at the speed of light to anywhere I want.  Anywhere. My choice is a no-brainer as I have always wanted to go deeper inside myself to find my center.  It normally takes years to get there, if one can ever really get there, but now that I can go at the speed of light, I…am…excited!!!

My center, Kristine Headquarters, is both the busiest place and the calmest place within me.  It is a place tucked in the center of my heart that neither X-ray, MRI, nor CT Scan can illuminate.

The busiest place. Think air traffic control tower. From every direction and at all times of the day, information and thoughts come and go. Each one is processed through a myriad of emotions, memories, rules and decisions. Some stay in the center longer than they should while others leave too quickly. Lights are flashing in bright bold colors, knobs are turning, bells are clanging and commands are bellowed out on how and what to process.

The calmest place. Think blue sky, with pinkish-orange hues coloring in around the golden setting sun at the edge of a still lake. The flames of candles flicker with the gentle breeze. The scent of freshly-baked chocolate chip cookies and brownies loiter in the air. Peace can be heard.

Looking around, I realize I am not alone in the center. There are other inhabitants dimming the flashing bright lights, turning the knobs, clanging the bells, and bellowing commands. I realize these inhabitants are at the same time calmly mixing paints and painting the sun set, holding out a hand to calm the lake, passing by the candles making their personal wind dance with the flames, and they are baking cookie after cookie and brownie after brownie.

In my center resides the Trinity; God the Father – Jesus, God’s only Son – and the Holy Spirit. The Power of 3 plus me. The Trinity is busy helping me to process all that comes at me as well as offers me refuge from it all. My center is a place to grow, learn, and rest in unconditional loving care.

While in Kristine Headquarters, I understand what Peter meant when he said in Matthew 17:4a (NIV) “Lord, it is good for us to be here.”

Slanted View From the Inside


Welcome to the inside of my mind as I free write. I usually do not share this type of writing as it can become a personal piece; however, I have joined Writing 101 to enhance my writing and learn to write better.  There may be typos, and this may not make sense.  For the first time, I don’t care what you think because this is my mind unleashing.  Speaking of unleashing, my dog-niece Emma was brutally mauled by some big dogs.  She is a little miracle and I have been praying for her since the horrible incident happened on Memorial Day.  Holidays are big for tragedy.  I am thankful that I have never lost a loved one on a holiday.  Near a holiday, but not on a holiday.  Heaven is full of people I love and miss dearly.

I am not sure how open I want my mind to get here. Although I am on the world wide web, I do consider myself a very private person.  I take to heart relationships and think they are more precious than gold or silver or any other mineral that is worth a lot of money.  I remember a time when I had made plans with a friend to go to a movie.  To get me to go to a movie is a big deal in itself, but I envisioned the time together after the movie where we could discuss what the movie was about and how it affected us emotionally or relationally…whatever the movie was about.  I met my friend at the theater since we lived a distance apart.  I still wonder what my expression was on my face when she showed up with her friend, whom I have never met before.  I was internally crushed as I value one-on-one time with others and this new person, I had no idea she was coming nor did I even know her from Adam.  I sucked it up and hung out with them.  The after movie time was not what I expected and I hated every minute.

Movies…I fall asleep in movies unless it is a good relational movie. See paragraph about relationships above.

I am pretty tired for a Monday. Usually I get a second wind on Sunday evenings and then it is like…”Oh, I need to do laundry”, or “shoot, I wanted to do such-and-such this weekend.  Why are weekends so fast and weekdays so slow?  I would like to ask that of different age groups.  For children every day takes a long time because they don’t have to do any thing but exist.  Parents or adults in their lives cook, clean, do laundry, blah blah blah.  Adults have to do all these things that are time consuming and that is where all of our time goes…to the necessities of life.   So let’s get rid of the mundane unnecessaries.  Join me in clearing out unneeded stuff.  Simplify simplify simplify.  I have challenged myself to drop my smartphone and ipad so that I can go back to a normal life of hobbies and creativity.  Candy Crush has taken away some of the most valuable time of my life that I can never get back.  I do like the relational aspect of Facebook, so I do tend to peruse my feed.  However, it is time to get back to basics, engage my brain and read, write and craft.  I have begun to teach myself how to crochet but, that is the only time that I really log into my ipad, so I can watch youtube videos.  So many people in the world are willing to share their love of crafting.  I am very thankful.  I am thankful that I was raised with a mom who was talented in anything she touched.  She can bake like none other, she can decorate cakes better than any bakery, she can sew, crochet and arrange flowers in a vase.  My sister is a very good seamstress and she inspires me every time I speak with her or read up on her fabric store in Kentucky.  (once again, a time I am on my devices).  I have really slowed down my electronic devices usage.  I have cut down on television too.  Not that that was ever a problem.  I have my favorite few shows such as Downton Abby, Survivor and Naked and Afraid.  Check that out…all relational-type shows.  If you ever want to know how to understand me, just ask me for one-on-one time.  We will be friends for life.

I am about done with this free writing. I didn’t unleash anything embarrassing; I did hold back a lot only because this is on my blog.  I want my readers to find interest in what I write.  I do not want to write junk.

 

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